Selflessness

In a way, it introduces her to her real self

the girl who is capable of having

all of the feelings that

she was not aware was there

the messy jumbled of mess

she did not know she was able to handle

It makes her feel too much

too much of herself

but at the same time

it engraves the selflessness within her

and as she dives deeper

surrendering to the ecstatic excitement

the more pieces of her she gives away

the lesser there are left for her to hold

She wakes up every morning

questioning the mirror

which is reflecting someone else

hiding beneath her skin

staring back with unfamiliarized eyes

seeking for things

that have never been missing

and a lonely heart that is

craving for happiness but her own

"what's left of you for me to love?"

she asks the foreign reflection
and just like that

the selflessness creeps right back in