Showing posts with label personal muse. Show all posts
Showing posts with label personal muse. Show all posts

Friday, July 27, 2018

Saturn (ii)

Don't you like the early AMs? Those times you could tiptoe out of your bedroom to just sit on the ground of your backyard, where the grass was probably wet, not from the rain, but from how cold the night was, that it felt damped against your pajamas as the coldness soaked into your skin? The moments where you could see the stars being awake, having conversations as the others were sleeping, blinking as they talked, exchanging 'hello' in almost inaudible whispers? I do.

Sometimes, when I do, I feel like I got soaked into their various luminescence, it was as if they 'caught me up in a swirl', as he said. But it wasn't the kind that gives you a headache, no. It was bedazzling, if anything, enchanting even. It felt like a risky, reckless flight to Neverland, and the stars were the fairy dusts, keeping you afloat with their twinkling chattering, and I was one of the Lost Boys, found.

In most of the trips, everything was so foreign, yet it got me familiarized so quickly. It was like encountering strange things in the woods people left for others to find, that reminded me of the personal items I scattered too once upon another time; memories, feelings, like a bunch of surprise souvenirs in a box, addressed to whoever is lucky, or poor enough to stumble upon and open.

My favorite conversation to hear though, was between the sun and that one particular planet; the one that looked like a tiny dot of white from where I usually lay down, despite him being the second biggest in the system. He is a planet so far the sun had to stretch her flares so much to make sure he gets to feel the warmth, so far that squinting his eyes wasn't enough to see just a glimpse of her shimmer. 

They mostly talk about their lives, sometimes it's about how lonely she felt, even in such a crowded place in the center of the universe, other times it's about how distant and distinct he felt, probably because of the rings surrounding him, which he may or may not be aware of them being one of the most beautiful things ever.

There were times, when in between those small talks, he'd wish her to be much closer, and each time he does, she'd blush, and the sky reflects it during the late AMs, like a painting, a perfect combination of her favorite colors; orange and yellow, before they had to part again, which might explain the color blue throughout the day.

The early PMs are not always good. Sometimes it's just cloudy, other times the sky's just gray and dull. But maybe he said something before their next talk, because hours ago, she blushed again, this time it was a wonderful gradation of pink and purple, it was as if she couldn't wait for the stars to be awake, having conversations as the others were sleeping, blinking as they talked, exchanging 'hello' in almost inaudible whispers.


I hope it's not going to be too cold tonight.

Thursday, August 25, 2016

Amber

She was there, blocking the window, her silhouette looked like it was glowing while the sun behind her began to kiss the day goodbye. "Isn't it beautiful?" She asked. That was when I realized, she came to watch nothing.

She was the view.

The Fox and the Prince

So we didn't talk that night, we didn't want to make things worse than they already were. But among those comfortable silences, I knew. That I've tamed you and I'm forever responsible for what I've tamed.

I regret nothing.


Wednesday, February 17, 2016

When...

When we have finally met,
I hope He'd give me that sudden longing,
like an irrational desire with bloods rushing,
Or my knees melting,
every time you're talking.

When we have finally met,
I hope He'd give you those funny feelings,
that make you remember,
The rapid beats in your chest, thinking,
"Oh dear, Lord, could this be her?"

When we have finally met,
I hope we could both be sure
That our desperate endeavors
Have finally come to an end, and ahead waiting, is our unpredictable future.


"But I haven't met you yet, and if I did, I'm not aware. I've been working on our future, crafting on my career. So when the day comes when I meet you, I could speak to your father. Communicate that I'm able to love and care for his daughter. Until then I can offer soulbeats and a letter. Painted inside my music, just wait 'till we see each other."

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

She's...

She has a pair of cautious eyes, been awake since day one,
And an aware mind, more prepared than what lays behind her ribs was once,
Where the bruises stay, and wounds bleed at times.
All to welcome the night: the crescent moon and the stars that shine.

"Is she crying?"

It’s not about the darkness that creeps, but more to the silence that follows,
Because in silence she’d remember things she’s been trying to swallow,
Not him, or those memories he’s in,
It is the unrequited longing, and the pain it brings.

"Or is it raining?"

She’d spent hours watching the ceiling, thinking,
Of the what-if-s, if-only-s, how-s, why-s, all the wondering,
She'd let the questions hits her like an auto-replay, pictures of him would come and run,
But her eyes stay dry, she breathes normally, almost numb.

"There are clouds in her eyes,"

But at times, in one of those silences that accompany the night,
She’d let her cautiousness fades and awareness sleeps,
With eyes closed, falling tears, and a bleeding wound that kills.

"It’s falling, falling..."

A post inspired by a song

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Patience



Lang Leav, Love & Misadventure
A beautiful suggestion well-told.

Monday, February 10, 2014

Why?

...Why do we write fiction?
"To express ourselves,"
"Because we like the sound of our own voices,"
Why do I write?
"To explore new worlds,"
"To explore old ones,"
To be somewhere else,
"Maybe to make sense of ourselves?"
"To set ourselves free,"
To get free of ourselves.
"To show people what it's like inside our heads,"
"To make people laugh,"
"To get attention."
"To stop hearing the voices in our heads,"
To stop, to stop being anything or anywhere at all.
"To leave our mark,"
"To create something that will outlive us."
"Asexual reproduction."
"To share something true,"

Cath shook her head.
"Why do we write fiction?" Professor Piper asked.
Cath looked down at her notebook.
To disappear.

Rainbow Rowell, Fangirl, ch. 2, pg 23.
My personal muse.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Eleanor & Park

That night when she asked him about his former,
"Is she prettier? Did she treat you better?"
Her lips curved into a pout, and it burst out his laughter,
"Nothing before you counts, and I can't imagine an after."