A Random "I Miss You"

You miss him but you’re holding yourself back a lot because you’re so scared that if he knows about how longing you are for him, he would think that you’re weird and run away instead, you’re so scared you might scare him back, and that he’ll make a joke to his friends about it, so you’re holding back for more, and no one has to know…

But the more you’re holding back, the bigger the longing you have, so big that you can no longer control it and it exhausts you so bad you feel like giving up. It’s like you can actually pick up that damn phone and dial his number, wait and see if he’ll answer, and you can finally satisfy yourself just to hear his voice over the line though “Hello?” is the only word he speak…

And if a phone call is too much, you can actually grab your cellphone and text him a good short text message saying “Hey, idiot. I miss you like coconuts.” or stuffs like that, aside from the torture you’ll feel the very second after you hit the ‘send’ button as every next second spent waiting for his reply…

But you do nothing because you’re so scared things wouldn't go as well as you planned and expected them to be. So you’re just writing this shit instead, just so a bit, if not most, of your burden could be lightened…

Oh, idiot. I miss you so freaking much.

Graduation Day!

TODAY, MARCH 19TH, IS MY GRADUATION DAY! WOOHOO! I am no longer a freaking student! And that makes me happy and sad at the exact same time and amount. It was like, you finally could let this one burden go but then another bigger burden comes, along with a bigger resposibility. So yeah. Kinda excited and scared if you know what I mean.

Just before the graduation day, I spent a night talking until very late with my girls. Then I received this call. Guess what. Hell yeah. A JOB INTERVIEW! FINALLY A CALL FOR AN INTERVIEW! sjdgfdgfhghdbfjhdgfsjhgfjhg *pukes rainbow and unicorns* This is so much a roller coaster ride and I couldn't wait to find out of what might happen to me next!

Again, graduation day. This day gave me a hell lot of energy. I've been there, done that, went through that up and down rides and all with all of my girls, and realizing together that the very moment we end our titles as students, starts a new momentum of being a new person. I miss having our crazy "lucah" conversation already. And those talks behind us. Awww, aren't we ALWAYS the center of attention?! BUT BUT BUT WE'RE GOING TO BE  ON OUR WAY NOW T_T We're not going to meet as often as we did before! 

At first I was like, hell no. I wanna be with my girls. I wanna work with them, be in the same building and have lunch together and all. But I know we'll be having each of our new adventure soon... again, sad, and exciting. What's my point here? Aw, sadly I don't have a point. I just need to write. I need to write this before I forgot to write about this beautiful day. Another favorite date to be written in the list: March 19th. Looking forward for November now, Mbake's graduation! :) Fighting my seven wonders! <3